Back feeling like it just needs to be cracked constantly, bleeding nose, ulcers in my mouth, head aches, eyes sore... I have had enough. I should of just kept smoking. I felt better in the moment when i was smoking. My fuse is getting shorter again. Cant handle too much pressure atm. Just need rest but find everything is annoying me. Why tha fuck does it make you feel so shit...
And then i remember.
This is a 12 year habbit that im trying to kick. I have 12 years of toxins to release from my body. I need to focus on the later and not the now. Put all energy i have left on what is coming, not what is happening.
Focus...
Focus
This was not going to be easy, we both knew that. I think it's been a little testing being cramped in a house for 4 days together. Both going through differant feelings. You are doing this for the right reasons. Tomorrow your back to work and I think it's going to help you keep your mind off it, but it's also going to set more challanges. You have broken habbits while being at home, now it's time to break them at work. Just know we do support what your doing, and retail theraphy is helping my "over run ness" have a good rest and this will start to look up soon. Love you .. X
ReplyDeleteHang in there - the end reward will make this all worthwhile.... These things are only temporary and will make you even stronger in your resolve. Geez you're even inspiring me to kick the habit! Go Finney, you can do it :)
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