Tomorrow see's me 2 weeks without a smoke

The hardest oart is over... The first 2 weeks. I know there are smokes around the house, hell... i even have a packet in the car. I cleaned out the ashtray the other day and i tell you what... the smell was disgusting. I am so glad i am not putting that bad shit into my mouth anymore. I do miss it sometimes though. I miss the feeling of sitting out side with a drink, puffing away. I dont miss it enough to take it back up though. I am getting more done at work too i feel because i am not spending 10 minutes every hour and a half having a smoke. My car is starting to smell better, i am starting to taste things more, i am starting to be able to be more active without getting puffed. I still have a huge hill to climb but i know that this time i start to climb that hill, theres no cloud of smoke in the way. Theres no heavy chest, no pounding heart... just me and my heart. I am gonna beat you smokes... beat you to a pulp!!!


Take it easy,




Finney

Its been... One week since you looked at me.

Well gooooood morning. What a fantastic feeling after having 8 hours sleep. Wow, thats a 3rd of my day gone already in just sleep. So lastnight i said to myself... IM going to start exercising. I said to Nic, Im gonna wake up at 6am and jump on the exercise bike. I dont think she believed me. I dont think i believed me. So, this morning, just to fool everyone INCLUDING myself, i gave it a go. I jumped on the bike and pedalled for 15 minutes. Thats good for me. A week off smoking, haven't exercised in years and i can manage to last 15 minutes without breaking a sweat barely... I am proud of myself. Small steps is all im going to take. I had a nice and healthy salad with dinner lastnight courtesy of the princess. Hope she makes something yummo for dinner tonight. So, in todays blog, i thought i might include some of my inspirations for quitting smoking. These 3 things mean the world to me even though one of them now is standing next to me smelling like a nappy has been dragged threw the sewer... the joys of wake up time.

Anyways, enjoy my inspiration and i hope you have enjoyed my post.

Take It Easy,

Finney!

OK sickness, enough is enough...

Back feeling like it just needs to be cracked constantly, bleeding nose, ulcers in my mouth, head aches, eyes sore... I have had enough. I should of just kept smoking. I felt better in the moment when i was smoking. My fuse is getting shorter again. Cant handle too much pressure atm. Just need rest but find everything is annoying me. Why tha fuck does it make you feel so shit...
And then i remember.
This is a 12 year habbit that im trying to kick. I have 12 years of toxins to release from my body. I need to focus on the later and not the now. Put all energy i have left on what is coming, not what is happening.
Focus...


Focus

Worst night ever.

Well... I am not enjoying the whole quitting smoking experience. Last night was probably the worst night of sleep i have ever had. The withdrawals have kicked in hard and i am suffering pretty bad. I feel bad because i am hopeless at the moment. I feel like i cant do anything. I went to the doctors yesterday and she told me i was burnt out. I have no reserves left. My tank is empty. That's exactly how i feel. I remember last time i tried to quit it was with Champix. It was working well but it made me cranky. Really really cranky and you ask Nic and she will tell you exactly that. It nearly ruined my relationship. Even though she was supporting me heaps, it felt as if it wasn't good enough. This time, I just feel empty. Like there is nothing inside but blank. I was having the weirdest dreams last night about parts for cars and i couldn't sleep until i had all these parts with what they needed to be with. I was awake about every hour and it was crap. The next few days are going to be spent resting. Must get as much rest as possible. I have a full packet of smokes here in the house but i don't know where Nic has put them. I guess with having them here its good because i know that if i want one, there here which kinda makes me want to quit more. If i had none here then i think i would break because i know I'd have to go and find one. Anyways, it makes sense in my head. Day 4 and no smoking... Its only the beginning but its a start :)

Take it easy,


Shane

The End... of day 1!!!!!

Hello there world of blogspot, how are we all?So i have lasted since 7:00pm last night without a smoke. I haven't really thought about it much today really. There was things i thought like Wow, I'd normally have a smoke when i did this or geeze i should of had a smoke on the way to work but hey... Its only a small step but i feel better already. I have been speaking to people and all they say is watch out... You'll put on weight. Im gonna have to control that aswell. So much to do. This is the 3rd attempt of quitting so i am hoping its 3rd time lucky...lol
Well... im about 4 weeks off being a dad again. Excited much... Cannot wait.

Anyway, Update more later.


Take it easy.


Shane

Because she said... Day 1!

So the title is relevent... I started this blog... Because she said i should start one to help with quitting smoking. So here is my goal first.
GOAL!!! To quit smoking within 3 months.
How am i going to do this... By Lozenges to start with.
Why am i quitting... Because i have a family i need to think about.

So Nic has just pointed out to me what i need to do. That is quit. So i have to take this one step at a time. I know when i smoke and i know why i smoke. I can even tell you when i started smoking. I was 14 and i was on Music camp at Ashmore Palms Resort with the Southern Stars Ensemble. I played the trombone... Insert laugh here. I thought i would be more accepted by everyone if i was a smoker... Like the cool kids. Was i wrong. I didn't know it would lead to years of being unhealthy, moody, borke... and the list goes on.

Last time i tried to quit i was on Champix. That name is a swear word in my household now... just ask Nicole. It made me angry, moody, depressed etc. and i just hated everyone. I NEED to do this for my family and my own health. I also a, a singer and i know that when i am off the darts, my voice is 100% better. Anyway, stay tuned on how my journey is going and tell me your weird and wacky tales of smoking.


Take it easy...


Finney