I might just disappear

I don't know where you've gone,

there was a man that made me proud.

My feelings and emotions

disappear into a crowd.

I've found myself along a path

that I have walked before.

Maybe I'll just disappear,

to where I'm not too sure.

I'm turning to old habits

that are driving them away.

I'm feeling like a coward

because I've got no words to say.

The path I see below my feet

is not what I desire.

Maybe I'll just disappear,

They'll live without my fire.

Suicide is not an option,

It's not something within me.

Ending life to compensate

that you will all be free.

The path I find myself upon

shows crumble and decay.

I hope I find myself the strength

to live another day.

27/05/2021.

Charley Bear - Losing my best friend

 Almost 12 months ago, my family went through a loss that has still to this day, been hard to deal with. Our beloved dog Charley Bear died suddenly at the age of 8. He had a cough for 24 hours beforehand but my wife took him to a vet at about 1am. They wanted to keep him in for monitoring overnight and advised us to come back in the morning and pick him up. Less than an hour later, we were called and told that his heart had failed and he was no longer with us. No goodbye, no preparation, just gone. 

Less than 3 months later, our other pooch Molly lost a short battle with cancer. That is a story for another day. Below are some words I wrote and have a song in mind to go with it. I don't think it is complete because when I started writing it, I couldn't fight back the tears enough to complete some more verses. 

Charley won't you come back home.
Charley won't you come back home. 

I wish this was a dream.

It's nothing like it seems.

Charley won't you come with me.

Charley won't you come with me.

I'm going down the store,

I can't say that no more.

Charley won't you come to bed,

Charley won't you come to bed, 

My feet are getting cold.

You weren't even that old.

Charley whatcha barking for?

Charley whatcha barking for?

There's nothing I want more,

To hear you at the door.

Man, I miss my dog.

Life... Is a shit of a thing sometimes

Been a while since I have written a blog.  Maybe it is something I will do more of.  I'm taking a break from music for a while so I think I might start sharing with you,  some of the lyrics i have written over the years.  I do have a few old faves in the mix.  If they do have a song linked,  I'll also try and dig that out too so you can see what context it was used in.  I have played some killer shows with killer musicians in my time.  I just think more isn't the time for me to be getting into something new.  Something old maybe if the opportunity cane about.  I'm currently going through a separation.  Have been for about 10 months now.  I guess it's getting to the critical stage where I need to either sink or swim.  It's my own fault.  I could of prevented this.  This is the first time I have mentioned it in any form of social media.  That's how ashamed i am.  Anyway,  kids are well.  Phoenix starts prep next year,  Addison is in grade one and Jett,  growing into such a man.  Grade 5 next year.  I'm proud of all of them.  Anyway,  I'll dig some lyrics out and stay sharing.  I should probably get some sleep.  Santa comes tomorrow and i have done very excited children to entertain tonight.  Until next time,

You can leave your hat on.