Hey all.
For those of you who read this or know me in real life are pretty aware of my constant battle with Anxiety and Depression. I am taking steps towards being a better me. I recently booked in with a psychologist who specializes in ADHD as I feel this is something that has also been a part of my whole entire life.
Recently I got a new tattoo. It is a reminder of two things. New beginnings and the heartache I have come through. That is why I now have what I call a "Blood Stained Rose" on my right forearm. 6 months ago I separated from my wife. It's okay, we are okay. I am not too sure if the harder roads are ahead or behind us but we both know that we will still be there for each other. I think in some circumstances staying together for the kids can be the worst thing you can do. I hold immense respect for her and will continue to. I haven't referred to her on numerous occasions as the G.O.A.T for no reason.
Today I set myself a 30 day challenge.
30 minutes of exercise
30 Minutes of music
30 Days without smoking
30 days without drinking.
I need to be a better version of myself. For my children but most of all, for me.
Today I wrote a song about my battle with anxiety. Only lyrics for now but here they are.
Reach out if you need someone to talk to. Believe it or not, you're not alone.
Just let me take this day by day
I know this feeling is replaceable.
So many years anxiety,
has made existing miserable.
The shortness of breath
that sinking of chest
the feeling that nothing
will settle unrest.
Just let me feel this one last time
before all hope is dead and gone.
Take a breath anxiety,
let's unwind within a song.
I'll catch my breath
release my chest.
Get a grip
It's time to rest.
You cannot threaten me
or leave me out
in misery.
You cannot win this war
I've got my hands
upon the door.
Now watch me
Walk away
I'm winning this
I've got today.
Day 1.
