War again

This is the first time re-reading this since I wrote it. I am not sure when I wrote it as I didn't put a date on it so I am not too sure of the argument that happened on that day/week. If I remember correctly, I wrote this from the perspective of the other person. How their feelings might show. Anyway, another dark one from the depths of the unknown.

I've been fighting a war again.

Trapped inside of my own head.
Trying to take myself outside
Coz' of something I should have said.

"I've been reading your words", she cries,

You've wasted all of your alibis.

I've been fighting a war again,

With the voices inside my head.

"I've been keeping the peace," she said.

While slowly drowning herself inside.

"Turn off the light and come back to bed"

I'll breathe in deep, these tears I'll hide.

You've tarnished all of these memories,

I used to keep of you and me.

I've been fighting a war again,

With all these voices inside my head.

I've been trying to walk away,

from the history of you and me.

Ripping out pages that we have shared,

Erasing all of our memories.

You're like a candle that's burning out,

no longer worth anything to me.

I've been fighting a war again,

I'm trapped inside of my own head.

Shane Finney - Some time in 2020.

meh!

I understand why 3am is so lonely. 

There's no one there for you to share your mind.

The feeling in my chest is overbearing,

I'm short of breath and can't seem to unwind. 

I'm turning into something that I didn't want to be. 

There seems to be a constant anger coursing over me.

This  mirror doesn't  show exactly who I want to see. 

How did I become the man in front of me! 

There's a battle raging deep inside

That I can't seem to get the upper hand. 

For every forward step I seem to take

I take a backwards step and lose command. 

There's always been a question that I've asked, 

It's "why the fuck do I even exist? "

If I disappeared without a trace, 

How much would my memory be missed. 

I'm turning into something that I didn't want to be. 

There seems to be a constant anger coursing over me.

This  mirror doesn't  show exactly who I want to see. 

How did I become the man in front of me!