I never thought that I'd be 31 and so disappointed with where I am in life. It sucks. The whole thing sucks. It seems that if something can go wrong, is going to go wrong for me. Friday night... Work function. As soon as dinner is over its as if I don't exist anymore. Second time I have been out with people from work and the second time I am left having to ring people trying to find out where they are. Am I that bad to hang around with that people feel the need to leave me behind? Another argument with my folks. This time it came out about how I feel I am treated by then compared to my brother and sister and the easy they treat my children compared to the rest of their grand children. something has to give. Maybe I need to run away. Pack up everything I own (which isn't much. It would fit in my car) and just leave. Maybe it's going to take that before people actually miss me. Oh... Wait, I've dive that before. 10 years ago. Thought it would give me a stronger relationship with my family but it didn't work then. So I moved back with my family. I fucked up my marriage and I'm right back to where I have always been. Alone. Seriously... What is the point!
