Kids... Damned if you do, damned if you dont. The last 48 hours have been somewhat of a rocky ride. Well, not just the last 48 hours... the last 2 years. I would have to say that one of the happiest days in my life was when i found out i was going to be a father. I could not believe how lucky i was. It was a true blessing after the week my partner and i had just had. Within 4 days, Nic's grandad died and then 4 days later my Nan passed away. then, on my birthday, Nic told me the good news. After a whole day of fighting coz i made too many phone calls... she told me i was going to be a dad.
Lets jump forward nine months to when Addison-dior was born. things went well with the birth and we thought we had a very big and healthy baby girl. about 10 days later... she spent 9 days in hospital again. The doctors had no idea what was wrong with her. they tried just about everything. 18 months on and i must say, i have the most beautiful, energetic and smart daughter who currently i am teaching to say "I Love You" just so i can hear her say the 3 most important words in the world. Her vocabulary is growing everyday. She just talks and talks now. But this brings me onto Phoenix. My poor little man smiled at me yesterday for the first time and it wasn't wind. Ask Nic...lol In the last 3 days we have had to do 2 wee samples and give blood twice and there not taking little amounts of blood... there taking ALOT. The doctors don't know whats wrong with him. All i know is that we have to wait 2 weeks for these test results and if they come back clear then they have to do a biopsy on his liver. Good news today though. He is still really badly jaundiced and when tested on tuesday his levels were 120 (Meant to be 20) and today they had dropped to 100. So thats a start. Hopefully he is getting better. He has a hernia in his belly button as well. He hates nights. He is sleeping now but when he wakes up for his next feed i know he will be restless for quite some time unless he is held. Jett is handling things well. Man how much has he grown...lol I was talking to him about what he liked and how he was when i first met him and he remembers it all. I have soo many good memories of our time together and i could not imagine life without him in it. I think i got the best 2 for 1 deal EVER!!! Now its a 5 piece and its awesome.
All i have to remember, to get me through my day... Think of my 3 beautiful kids smiling.
Love you all.
Finney
