Whats the purpose of this Slaugter,
open range, open wound.
I know that theres a meening,
to my thoughts, in my gloom.
Is there anything beyond this,
in my mind, i should see.
All the trouble that i'm causing,
This wont end, you and me.
There used to be no feelings,
in the words i would write.
At first in the begining,
I would try not to fight.
But it seems its getting easier,
To let go of how i feel.
With everyday beyond us,
everything becomes more real.
Im sitting here in silence,
as i swore i never would.
Questioning my own ability,
asking if i ever could.
Do you understand the real me,
is my point to you made clear.
If i could start again and change this,
I would take away our fear.
Copyright - Shane Finney 2008
I wrote this AGES ago and just found it again. Man i used to write some good shit. Tell me your thoughts.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
My morning marathon...
Good morning all, how are we?
If you know where i live then you would know that its very hilly. This morning, i decided to take my daughter for a walk. I thought yeah... the shops aren't that bad, why not go down there. When your awake most of the night with a new born and you have other children that wake up early, most days its really hard to find the motivation needed to start the day. All i can say is Woah... a 2km walk up and down steep hills really did it for me this morning. Its something that both myself and my daughter enjoyed, She laughed as we went over the bumpy footpath and the scone that she got when we reached the bottom of the hill at the bakery. I dont think i would of been able to do that walk 2 months ago. I would of wanted a smoke just to get my breath back...lol So i am now a non smoker and am trying to get fit and all i can say is... Im loving it at the moment. Still things that have to change but hey, it wont happen overnight but it will happen.
Something else i am working on at the moment is The Point. Check it out at The Point Gold Coast.
Thats it from me for now... Speak soon.
Finney
If you know where i live then you would know that its very hilly. This morning, i decided to take my daughter for a walk. I thought yeah... the shops aren't that bad, why not go down there. When your awake most of the night with a new born and you have other children that wake up early, most days its really hard to find the motivation needed to start the day. All i can say is Woah... a 2km walk up and down steep hills really did it for me this morning. Its something that both myself and my daughter enjoyed, She laughed as we went over the bumpy footpath and the scone that she got when we reached the bottom of the hill at the bakery. I dont think i would of been able to do that walk 2 months ago. I would of wanted a smoke just to get my breath back...lol So i am now a non smoker and am trying to get fit and all i can say is... Im loving it at the moment. Still things that have to change but hey, it wont happen overnight but it will happen.
Something else i am working on at the moment is The Point. Check it out at The Point Gold Coast.
Thats it from me for now... Speak soon.
Finney
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
The start of phase 2!!! What am i getting myself in to?
Why hello there followers and people who just click on my page randomly, how are we?
So i have forgotten how many weeks its been since i have quit smoking but i am sure we have passed the 2 month mark. Wow its been hard. Its amazing to think about how much can happen in 2 months.
On the 8th of April 2010 i became a parent again. At 9:50am, Phoenix Henry Arthur Finney was brought into the world by Sandy at the Tweed Hospital. It was a quick birth (As Always) but it wasn't that day that became the stressful one, It were the days to follow.
The days before Phoenix's birth, N and i spoke about what was to happen when the day finally arrived and we made a plan. My plan was to be on holidays and stay at home with the other kids for a few days while N was in hospital. This was great. Good plan...so we thought. My mum had agreed to come down and stay with me and the 2 little ones for a few days, just to help out around the house to make it easier on N when she got home but the thing is... N didn't come home, not for 8 days. Phoenix was suffering from severley jaundiced. Wow, talk about hard. It was rough on me at home and i can only imagine how hard it was for N in hospital. Hospital food and hospital beds. She even awoke one night to feed and on her way down to special care, slipped on one of each of her shoes. One thong and one slipper. Atleast she got the right feet. Between doing the kids runs to school and kindy, 2 trips a day to the hospital and then the witching hour i was challenged. This really tested me and i tell N that i give her all credit as this is what she does all day every day while im at work and i agree with you here... YES you do have the hardest job in the world...lol
Through all this, i stuck to my no smoking but i failed in another area. 2 things took a beating. 1 was my pocket and the other was my weight. It was quick, it was convenient so i spent the money and got the take away and i can tell you now that over that time i added about 5kg's to my weight. So this blog is to tell you what i plan to do.
I plan to loose weight. I have set a goal and a time frame of how long i have to do this.
My Starting Weight - 111.7kg's
My Goal Weight - 90kg's
So what do you think... Thats a total weight loss needed of 21.7kg's. Lets say, i want to achieve this in 3 months. Lets see how i go. I will update once a week with my weight but will blog throughout the weeks with how i am feeling and what i did to help achieve my weight.
New me... Here i come.
Till next time people,
Take it easy.
Finney
So i have forgotten how many weeks its been since i have quit smoking but i am sure we have passed the 2 month mark. Wow its been hard. Its amazing to think about how much can happen in 2 months.
On the 8th of April 2010 i became a parent again. At 9:50am, Phoenix Henry Arthur Finney was brought into the world by Sandy at the Tweed Hospital. It was a quick birth (As Always) but it wasn't that day that became the stressful one, It were the days to follow.
The days before Phoenix's birth, N and i spoke about what was to happen when the day finally arrived and we made a plan. My plan was to be on holidays and stay at home with the other kids for a few days while N was in hospital. This was great. Good plan...so we thought. My mum had agreed to come down and stay with me and the 2 little ones for a few days, just to help out around the house to make it easier on N when she got home but the thing is... N didn't come home, not for 8 days. Phoenix was suffering from severley jaundiced. Wow, talk about hard. It was rough on me at home and i can only imagine how hard it was for N in hospital. Hospital food and hospital beds. She even awoke one night to feed and on her way down to special care, slipped on one of each of her shoes. One thong and one slipper. Atleast she got the right feet. Between doing the kids runs to school and kindy, 2 trips a day to the hospital and then the witching hour i was challenged. This really tested me and i tell N that i give her all credit as this is what she does all day every day while im at work and i agree with you here... YES you do have the hardest job in the world...lol
Through all this, i stuck to my no smoking but i failed in another area. 2 things took a beating. 1 was my pocket and the other was my weight. It was quick, it was convenient so i spent the money and got the take away and i can tell you now that over that time i added about 5kg's to my weight. So this blog is to tell you what i plan to do.
I plan to loose weight. I have set a goal and a time frame of how long i have to do this.
My Starting Weight - 111.7kg's
My Goal Weight - 90kg's
So what do you think... Thats a total weight loss needed of 21.7kg's. Lets say, i want to achieve this in 3 months. Lets see how i go. I will update once a week with my weight but will blog throughout the weeks with how i am feeling and what i did to help achieve my weight.
New me... Here i come.
Till next time people,
Take it easy.
Finney
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Holy cow, i made it a month!!!!
Well... i didn't think i'd be saying this anytime soon but...
I MADE IT A MONTH WITHOUT A CANCER STICK!!!!!
It feels weird. My clothes dont smell anymore, the taste in my mouth is not that of a filthy ashtray, My fingers dont smell and the list goes on. I will admit, i have but on a little weight since giving up smoking but thats something that over the coming days that i am preparing to loose which is something i will start blogging about too. I am talking about Body Trim. I tell you what, this is amazing stuff. My boss started this program about 4 weeks ago and i think he said he has lost about 8kg's. But you see, its weight thats going to stay off because of how the program works. If i didn't know anyone who was doing the program and someone told me i'd probably laugh at them and tell them... you cant eat more to loose less...lol
So here i am, 4 days before im 26, about to become a father again within the next few days and i am taking one the biggest challenges life has to offer... apart from children, Quitting smoking and of course, loosing weight. Its time to create a new me. The next blog will have my goals in it, my current weight and how i am going to go about loosing weight. Lets see if the next 3 weeks holidays i can turn my life around.
Enjoy life everyone...
Finney
I MADE IT A MONTH WITHOUT A CANCER STICK!!!!!
It feels weird. My clothes dont smell anymore, the taste in my mouth is not that of a filthy ashtray, My fingers dont smell and the list goes on. I will admit, i have but on a little weight since giving up smoking but thats something that over the coming days that i am preparing to loose which is something i will start blogging about too. I am talking about Body Trim. I tell you what, this is amazing stuff. My boss started this program about 4 weeks ago and i think he said he has lost about 8kg's. But you see, its weight thats going to stay off because of how the program works. If i didn't know anyone who was doing the program and someone told me i'd probably laugh at them and tell them... you cant eat more to loose less...lol
So here i am, 4 days before im 26, about to become a father again within the next few days and i am taking one the biggest challenges life has to offer... apart from children, Quitting smoking and of course, loosing weight. Its time to create a new me. The next blog will have my goals in it, my current weight and how i am going to go about loosing weight. Lets see if the next 3 weeks holidays i can turn my life around.
Enjoy life everyone...
Finney
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